Start journaling.
One way to get to know yourself better and to better process your feelings, thoughts and experiences is the good old diary. Set a time during the day, for example right after you get up or before you go to bed, and write down what goes through your mind.
These notes are only for you. So don't censor yourself but let your stream of consciousness run free. It is not about writing particularly beautifully, poetically or eloquently, but only about putting your thoughts on paper. Every day.
You will see how this daily routine will, over time, give you more and more freedom for other things that are important to you. You will become more and more aware of what bothers you and what is important to you. But you will also notice that you are often haunted by the same thoughts and reactions. At first this can be an unpleasant experience and create inner resistance. You will feel the urge to postpone or to stop writing altogether. You may question the usefulness of it in general or doubt whether you are doing it right.
But there is no right or wrong. The only thing to keep in mind is that you should sit down every day, preferably at the same time, and write down whatever is on your mind.
When you surrender to this daily ritual, you can no longer avoid unpleasant truths, thoughts and feelings; a mirror is held up to you.
This is the beginning of your journey to yourself, which irrevocably brings inner and outer changes, dissolves blockages, reveals destructive thought patterns and inspires your creativity.
If you want to delve deeper into it, we recommend the classic to release blocked creativity: Julia Cameron's The Artist’s Way: A Spiritual Path to Higher Creativity.